Have you ever felt empty inside? I feel exhausted and having too much things to be done but in fact I'm just get things done as it is. Nothing's special, I don't expect too much but ended up "Why am i doing this for?", "Do I really need to get this things done this way?"
I'm questioning so many things in life. sometimes I cried myself to sleep. I couldn't say that I'm always okay. I'm the kind of person who always remain calm outside but actually I'm burning inside. I cannot spontaneously express my feelings and sometimes it is sucked.
I put other's feeling more than myself. I barely cannot express my anger or sadness. When someone dissapoint me I just made some space for a while, hoping that time would help me to healed. Lately I found that actually time never heal, but at least time will help us cope with the situation and make us ready to accept life as it is.
I watched Inside Out 2 a while ago. It's one of my favorite animated movie. It made me realized that all emotions are valid. It's okay to feel anxious, angry, sad, embarrassed. Don't ever try to shut it down. The more we try to push it down, the more stress we get.
Anger is not something that we should avoid. It's purely make us a human being. Find more way to help us cope with anger. If you feel like you want to punch someone, maybe you can try to join combat sport, at least you will learn to punch your opponent with professional skills (and in a sportmanship way) LOL, it can burn calories too.
Lately I consider myself to join drum class, Should I? but no. LOL
Cheers to this angry girl, M.
